It's late and I'm Meatloaf is stuck in my head making it hard for me to fall asleep. My mind is racing and I cannot seem to shut it off. Funny how these things go. Nothing comes to you during the day bu the minute you try to fall asleep you suddenly have every brilliant idea or thought in the world. If I did everything my mind came up with while I was trying to fall asleep I would have 15 books, a screenplay, a novel, and a song written. I would have become a crime fighter, built a Batcave, and a time machine. I guess that's the way these things go. The thoughts or ideas come at the most inopportune time so you are faced with a decision: go to bed and hope you remember the thought or get up and get to work. Either be tired in the morning or finish your project.
I am not a night owl. I lost my taste for it when Connor was born and we were living off of 3-4 hours of sleep a night for 8 months. Yes, we had one of those babies that wasn't perfect and that you never read about on Facebook (You're only allowed to post good stuff about your kids. It's part of the rules). Now however we do have one of those toddlers who is perfect. Just kidding. Though he doesn't fuss now when he has to go to bed and lately has been trying to put himself to bed. Honestly, he's a great kid and I am truly a fortunate soul.
Lately my mind has been focusing on that the fortunate side of my life. Overall I have been a very fortunate man. Life's been good even with the bumps and bruises. I have been a fortunate man.
I accomplished every goal I set when I graduated high school. I have a great group of friends. I am blessed to have a job that I love at a church that I love. I am blessed to have ministered at 3 churches that have cared for me deeply and have shaped who I am. I am fortunate to have parents and a brother who truly care about me and my family. I am fortunate to have in-laws who care about me and my family. I am fortunate to have a wife who truly loves me for me. I've felt these blessings over the past few days and I am grateful.
Life is tough and I know a storm is off on the horizon somewhere but I trust that I'll survive because I've survived before. This isn't a post on bragging or saying, "be like me" or blah blah blah blah. This is just me reflecting on these blessings and they truly humble me. They show me grace. They show me kindness. The show me love. They show me forgiveness. They show me tomorrow is worth waking up for. They help me hold on when I want to let go. They are my lightning rod. They ground me and help me fly all at the same time. They help me face life's arrows with a grin and arms wide open.
Tonight I am just thankful and I think it's okay to sometimes just be humbled by it all.
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