"Whatever you do with your life, go on listening to the voice of Jesus in your heart. This listening must be an active and very attentive listening, for our restless and noisy world God's so loving voice is easily drowned out." Henri Nouwen
My mind is racing. It's difficult to focus. There's too much available to do at the same time as I attempt to listen to you. This world is full of distractions. My phone rings as I begin to write. My email alert goes off when I begin to read. My mind wanders in the silence. My thoughts move in and out of being present. I get lost in thought.
You whisper when you speak. Sometimes you mumble. Your voice is sometimes silent. Sometimes you say nothing at all and in that nothing say everything.
These next 33 days are going to be tough. 33 days of devoting time to listen to your voice in the midst of teenagers screaming in pain. 33 days of trying to be attentive to your voice in the midst of anxious adults. 33 days admist overfunctioners. 33 days admist a self driven society. 33 days of trying to remove myself in order to discover myself. 33 days asking, "My mind is filled with ideas of God but is my heart with God?"
33 days asking, "Am I talking to God or am I listening to myself speak?"
33 days praying, "Speak Lord, your servant is listening."
33 days hoping that is true.
33 days of emptying myself into you. May your whispering voice become the voice I hear in the sounds of your creation. Amen
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